It is amazing how a committed, intimate Master and slave relationship can push buttons I had hidden from myself, how it can shine the spotlight on the untruths, fears, obstacles and beliefs I hold inside. How it can teach me so much more then I ever anticipated. It is quite a classroom.
When I reflect on what life has unfolded since I became Master's slave, I am humbled, moved and excited to understand what a beautiful platform He has offered me for growth, acceptance, wisdom, truth and love. Serving Him continuously shows me my own self-imposed limitations, my deepest fears as well as my deepest wishes. And He teaches me about them.
Sometimes, I am a most unwilling student. Sometimes, I forget. I let my perception of outside events immerse me in fear or doubt or pain. In those moments, I am not providing the quality of slavery that both Master and I desire, as I turn my focus to me, instead of to my Master. And oh, how I can judge myself for those moments! But always does He correct me and guide me back to where we want me to be. Always does Master refocus me, re-inspire me and remind me that fear is not true, that Iove and service are my truth. And then I am able to remember that I WANT to be a devoted slave. I WANT to be love. That I am not bound to what I have been, only to what I wish to be now. And that He will always hold me to the truth and to my role of slave to Him, no matter what goes on around us.
People find all kinds of ways to grow and learn the truth of who we are. From religion, spiritual paths, prayer, family to the mastering of an art of craft. For me living as Master's slave, surrendering to love and to service and devotion to my Owner and Teacher....is my way.
I am so deeply grateful for it.
so very nice written, as always!
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