It can show up in any way imaginable, Master seems to use any opportunity to teach me, from texts to in depth conversations, journal writing or book sharing, physical punishment or discipline, sexual acts, hypnosis, to a certain look in His eye etc etc. The physical training, emotional training, mental training and spiritual training all combined
Masters process of training me keeps me deeply inspired and active and focused on Him and on serving Him, as well as on how I serve Him.. It is far too easy for me to get caught up in the little details of daily life. It is far to easy to get caught up in emotion, reactions, fears and desires. His training returns my focus to Him over and over again until it becomes more and more of my reality. His training shows me my fears and how to let go of them so that I can love Him and live surrendered to that love.
The goal for me in being trained by Him is to remove bit by bit any walls, fears and obstacles that would prevent me from serving Him, understanding Him and loving Him. The goal is to learn to obey, serve, worship and love with NO hesitation, judgement or reservation in any situation or circumstance, no matter what He does or does not do, no matter what I do or do not want. The goal is to fine tune me to the point that I always create happiness and pleasure for Him, that I unfaltering offer Him unconditional love and total surrender of my "ego". His training teaches me how to do this through the day to day events that occur around me. It teaches me how to train myself.
It's a long journey that will take many, many steps. Those steps are what being trained has come to mean to me.
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